Okay, so I’m writing a lot about my course recently but I promise I’ll write something about my home update soon!
I’ve just submitted my first photograph for one of my assignments and it surprisingly challenged me. I had been putting it off because I thought I’d breeze through it – the brief was to take a photo of something around the home in an ‘artistic’ way… how hard could it be, right? I do it all the time for the blog and for my IG posts so I was feeling pretty confident.
Of course, turns out I was wrong and it was harder than I thought. Self doubt and pressure came into play again but I got over it and just did it – as I’m getting older, I’m finding that this is a good approach to tackling things! Anyway, here’s a quick look at what I submitted – what do you think? Any feedback is greatly welcomed!
As a part of the course, there’s some open forums where students can share their progress or graduates can share their work – kind of like Flickr. And naturally being my nerdy self, I’ve been checking out the forums to see what others are doing out there and get tips for modules that I’m trying to complete.
The challenge with that is that I’m not actually inspired by what I see but don’t get me wrong! There is some amazing photography of landscapes and portraits in there. I appreciate all the hard work that goes into creating these kinds of images as well as the courage to share and receive feedback for them. It’s just not the type of photography that I’m personally in to and that makes it hard to be motivated because I’m such a visual person.
So to make sure that I keep myself motivated, I’ve set up some inspiration cut outs from my favourite photography sources on the wall behind me when I’m studying. I love simplicity and stillness in photos from photographers like Alice Gao as well as magazines like Cereal which has always been what I want to be shooting.
I’ve got a long way to go but hopefully it will keep me motivated – at least I’ll be able to turn around, get a quick dose of inspiration then hit the books again!
I took the plunge this week and completed the first of my new year resolutions – I enrolled in a photography course. Having received lots of advice on what to do and not to do, I finally just sat down and did it.
But the hardest part about all this was actually trying to figure out what I wanted to achieve from it. Was it for better blog photos? Did I want to someday become a freelance photographer? Did I just want to do it because I was feeling creatively challenged? There was an accumulation of all these factors but mounting pressure on myself meant that my self doubt really took over this week.
I don’t take good enough photos, I’m not creative enough and I’ll always just be a try-hard, talentless hack. People will laugh at me and think what I do is rubbish, that I’m wasting time and money doing something that isn’t going to get me anywhere. All these thoughts constantly ring in my head even as I write this and I’m not going to lie – it’s scary, confronting and a little heartbreaking.
(Source: A Life Lived Well via Pinterest)
I pinned this quote this week because it really resonated with me - I think it sums up how I’m trying to turn the negativity into a positive approach to my studies. I really have no idea what I will achieve from this course but if I never enrolled, then I’ll never know.
Wish me luck!